Monday, February 28, 2011

last Feb update

Baby still swimming well. We have a date set for the 10th to induce if I don't go into (real) labor myself before then. BP was good today. Dilation at a three, so we've progressed. So we'll see what happens! I'm glad to have a tangible/(semi) able to plan date now though. So I have perhaps one more weekend with only two boys at the house. Then next weekend... we'll see .... will it be three boys or will we add a prima ballerina to the mix?

Anyone want to vote? Poll on the left.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Feb Recap

For this month, I’ll keep with the same basic outline as I gave in Jan… however I’m guessing the update in March will be much more baby focused and a lot shorter due to the to-be-sure sleep deprivation heading our way.

Money—

I love deals. Love them. I don’t like shopping, but I really do like deals! I did go over budget again. It’s HARD to stay in budget. It really is. But like with Jan, I’m okay with it be/c I didn’t use the debit card to go over budget, I used my babysitting cash. I spent $386.46 with a budget of $360.00. Next month, when the babysitting money is gone, I’ll have to be much more careful about staying within the allowed amount.

My favorite deal from Feb was the Desitin score. I also am glad I’m stocked on things like trash bags, toothpaste, deodorant, body wash and also food things like veggie oil and oatmeal and canned tomatoes and rice and cereal… things that we’ll use up but it’s so cool to go to our stockpile rather than the store for these items when we need them.

I’ve stalled the stocking specifically of grains for now. It just doesn’t make sense and is really hard. I need to find a better tactic. This may be postponed until Summer when I wont be as hormonal or scattered about planning. Right now plans are a joke.


Book wise—

I did finish “Scream free parenting” I recommend it really for anyone who just wants to find more control over themselves. It’s not so much as a “here’s how you parent” book as it is a “here’s how you help yourself to be a better person, thus becoming a better parent” book. I will take much from having read it.

I’m apparently also however a Jane Austin failure. I could not finish Sense and Sensibility. I’m going to try Pride and Prejudice next month but I had to return the first one unfinished to the library. I was hung up in the language and the story was boring to me. I love the movie P&P, so hopefully being familiar with the characters will help me do better on this next one. Otherwise I may have to quit my group. haha

I need a new parenting/raising boys book. Any suggestions out there?

OT wise—

We’re still making slow slow progress. We had such a good streak with Jan not missing any days and trying a new food every day. Sadly, in Feb there has been three days we skipped be/c of life in the way of meal time. (Meal time not at our house, our control, on the go). I know in March this number may increase even be/c of the amount of people in and out of the house and me not fully in charge of my kitchen or Matthew’s needs, but we’ll strive to keep it going. I’m so proud of him. I really really am. The balking, whining, challenging me at meals has lessened greatly. It hasn’t stopped but it’s lessened. We still gag on certain foods and refuse to touch others but for the most part, he is doing good. We still have really horrible awful days. But, we are seeing slow slow progress but at least it IS progress at all. So I’m happy with that.

Baby news—

So far no baby. But that’s okay. Our due date is March 18th and we’re coming up to it quickly. It’s so wonderful in this past week to be focusing on this GROWING LIFE instead of where my mind usually is at the end of February. This is normally a very difficult emotional time for me, but God has chosen to bless me and to take His arms around me during this time this year. A year ago I lost our second angel to Heaven and three years ago, I lost our first. I still haven’t had an anniversary of this first angel be/c it was 2/29. Tomorrow is 2/28 and somehow, with God’s grace, this year is better. God is still God and HE is still faithful and this year He’s showing me His love and power and grace every day. He continues to bless me with this sweet miracle of new life within, this miracle baby growing inside me. Keep growing, little miracle. Keep growing, my baby bear. We will meet you soon enough and I will be so filled with joy to see you. I go back for a check up in the morning, so perhaps I’ll have one more baby update before the month is officially over. We’ll see what tomorrow brings.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

goodnight my angel

A year ago today, God took a second child of mine home to Heaven. Has it really been a year? I will not contemplate too much on this today. I will acknowledge my sweet angel but I will not sit and cry today. God is so good. He's faithful and HE IS IN CONTROL. I'm so so blessed to be carrying this child, this gift I'd never known I needed until He gave it to me. Sweet baby in Heaven, I do yearn to meet you in Glory some day. I am blessed to know where you are and to know you are with your brother or sister who went before you.


Thank you God for all you do. For all you are. For all you have given me. Both in love and loss. I will CHOOSE to say "blessed be YOUR name."

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

more pictures

I can't help it. I just can't stop looking at, playing with and tweaking the pictures that Meg took. Here are three more I just have to share. All of which I've played with the lighting/coloring and love the final products. I can not believe (still.... again... still....) A. how talented Meg is and B. how beautiful these pictures make me feel.



the sweetness of my oldest in this picture
is captured; it's just precious to me.




God's beauty, both first in nature and then second
in pregnancy--in the gift, the unmistakable gift of life--
makes me just stare at this one.




the beauty of the high grass and the starkness
of the bright red draw me to this one


a (non) update

Nothing really new to report on this week. Baby is doing good. Baby heartbeat is good. Baby movement is good. My bp was elevated some but not enough to be concerning. The hernia is still there and painful. I have no change in dilation. I'm still measuring huge (now 39 weeks and I'm not yet 37) but what else is new. The strangers I've come in contact this weekend will tell you I'm huge... We have an appt next Monday and we'll see what happens then. Come on baby.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Rite Aid Score


12 Desitin
2 Johnson's baby wash
1 bag of M&Ms

TOTAL COST: $6.89
Cost of one Desitin normally: $4.99 ....say what?!?!
Total SAVED: $65.38
Percentage of savings: 90.47%

Desitin and J&J products are on sale at RA this week for 2.99 with 2UPS back. With a 1.00 coupon that makes them $1.99 and I had UPS to use. Very very thankful for my new coupon group with some gals--we've been swapping coupons so I had 12 Desitin coupons to use! ... I did three transactions between two different stores spending $1.84, $2.68, and $2.38 be/c I tore off the new UPS from each receipt to use on the current transaction. It's amazing. Completely amazing. They basically paid me a ton to take their product off the shelves yesterday! (I don't want to seem like a shelf cleaner, so I will say that at the first store the product was limited, but I did leave 2 Desitin on the shelf, only taking four. And at the second store, the product was well stocked, so I took the 8 more I wanted and still left at least that many.)

We're set on Desitin for the YEAR and I think the same probably goes for the baby wash. I've got about 6-8 bottles now stocked up. So so happy about the little things we don't have to shell out full price for anymore! It is so worth it!

Besides this, not pictured I scored some awesome dove deodorant this week--four bottles for free and some nearly free ziplock bags at RA. I am LOVING this store.

Friday, February 18, 2011

Hi Belly


One of my most favorite things is working with pictures. Specifically pictures of my children. My sweet friend Meg has taken "belly pictures" for me now each time. I can't believe the amazing work she does. She has a way of making me feel beautiful. I love her so much. I want to give her all the props I can and I want to promote her site. Take a trip over HERE to see other pictures she's taken! Also, enjoy these... she took so so many, this isn't even a tiny bit of what she took, but I've tried to narrow down some favorites per outfit. I'm so glad we got to get these done this time, especially with Baby Bear being a little bit drama filled these days!

hands on the belly

Mark talking to the baby

Matthew kissing baby

both boys kissing baby

I love this family shot!

and this one, even with Matthew's craziness


Mark goofing

Matthew goofing

This pose was recreated from when we did Mark's pics

Matthew finding the baby

Just me and Jamie

Daddy talking to baby

Daddy holding us

Fun

"Greek Goddess"ish pic

outside

laughter

thoughtful

grow, sweet baby

hello baby

Lord, please protect this baby


Thank you God for this baby

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Practice.

Harmph.

Tuesday night I woke up near every half hour in back pain. Lots of back pain. I couldn't get comfortable for anything, I just kept changing positions and crying and whimpering and turning over and moaning and... yah, you get the picture.

Yesterday morning was bad. I sat here in this chair blogging/emailing for a few minutes but then spent most of the morning in back stabbing pain on the couch. When it came time to take Matthew to preschool, I was near crying again and could barely get in the car. I made it to preschool and got Matthew dropped off in tears and came back home with Mark. I didn't know if I was in labor or not but it sure felt like it could be.

After some phone calls, Jamie was on his way home to get me, K was at the office ready to receive me to be rechecked and Nancy was on her way to collect Mark. I moaned most of the way to the hospital. It felt like there were knives stabbing my back on and off. A few abdominal contractions also coupled the back pain as we drove. At the office, I was checked and still a two. So that was surprising given how much pain I was in. We were sent to the hospital for pain meds and for an IV. She said if the labor was real, the pain meds would help calm me, make me sleep, and the IV would help something I forget. When I woke up, I should be dilated further... If the labor wasn't real, the contractions should stop. Ohhhh kaay.

Well after sitting through registration and then getting in a gown and hooked up to the baby monitors we started the always fun (not) IV adventure with the first nurse who blew the first IV attempt but was very very sweet and said she wouldn't try again and went to get someone else. However, the someone else was um, less than pleasant, I'm serious... Attila the Hun walked in to do the second attempt, I died a little inside. When she left, Jamie goes "yah, she looked like a digger". Yah... she was obviously annoyed with my little veins and when I asked her to please not try my hand again that normally no one can find it in my hand, she kind of groaned at me about how she'd "trrrry" to find one in my arm, but probably not. Yah whatever, I had like FIVE attempts with Mark. I know what I'm talking about. WHY can't nurses respect and listen to the patient about stuff like this??? I'm not making it up. Anyhow, she found one in my arm she was satisfied with and stuck it in there. And missed the vein. And I cried and I grabbed the bed and begged her to stop... be/c she had started DIGGING around for it. DEAR GOD if you can't find it, STOP TRYING! It was probably less than 30-40 seconds, but it felt like five minutes she sat there digging around looking for the vein, me crying, her telling me to hold still, me thinking "I CAN DO OUCH ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO OUCH STRENGTHENS ME. GOD MAKE HER STOP". It was awful.

Once the IV was in though, it was sort of smooth sailing. The first nicer nurse came back over and got the baby back on the monitor since the IV experience made the baby swim away. I dozed in and out. Jamie was so nice and wonderful. Eventually the bag of solution reached the bottom and the nurse came back and was ready to recheck me.

I was still at a two. No change. False labor. Are you kidding me?! The amount of pain I was experiencing in the morning was anything but false, however if the contractions aren't opening up things down there, they can't do anything about it if you aren't ready to deliver. I was offered a shot in my bottom that I refused. I wasn't really feeling pain anymore by then anyhow, it was more soreness and discomfort, so we were discharged.

I slept the ride home and ate a bite and crawled into bed where I stayed for another 3 hours. At some point Jamie collected the boys and I think fed them, last night was foggy. I made it to the computer to update facebook and eat a small bowl of cereal and then crashed on the couch for another couple hours drifting in and out before heading back to bed where I slept SOUNDLY. I think I did roll around a couple times, but for the first night in a long time I felt like I actually got rest. So that's good.

Soooo we'll chalk yesterday up to practicing. Nice huh? If it were up to me, they would have started the pitocin yesterday and gotten it over with. But I didn't get to vote. LOL. I have had enough practice now, so whenever you are ready to come out Baby Bear, please just come on. No more spoofin.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Baby Appt update / kindness

Baby Update:

Yesterday we had an ultrasound appointment. I will say that afternoon appointments are for the birds. Having a 3pm appt and not being seen until 4:10 sucks. That's all about that though. :)

The baby is doing good. It was a joy to see him or her again. Oh the profile... so so sweet. If I knew how to work the scanner there would be a picture on this post, but I'm clueless in that department. The thing that makes me smile about the profile picture is the sweet ultrasound lady (God bless her, she's so wonderful) goes "who has a prominent chin?" hehehe Jamie does... she said "this baby's chin, look at that, do you see that?" It's so cute. She was able to tell me that the baby has hair. HA! No bald babies in our world.

... on to the other stuff though...

-The hernia that we were made aware of last week is still there, still sore, but thankfully not concerning my midwife, K. So that's good.
-Baby is big. Baby's head is measuring 38 weeks 2 days *note yesterday we were only 35 weeks and 4 days. Right now though the estimated weight is 6 pounds 7 ounces. This of course can be give or take up to two pounds, so who knows. All I know is that if that is right, add half a pound per week and we're going to have a BIG BABY. Sigh.
-Also, they want fluid levels between 5-20 and mine is "slightly elevated" at 21.14.
-Also, last piece of information to include, is that in one week I went from a 1 to a 2 dilation.........

soooooo, we have a lot of variables going on but all in all K is pleased with the baby, the hernia and where we are. She's a little concerned with the size, but not enough to merit panicking yet. So we have another appt scheduled for next week unless we go into labor before then.

Stay safe sweet baby with your daddy's chin.


Kindness:


I need to take a moment to thank some people. I'm not sure if they even read this regularly or at all, but it can't go without being said.

Nancy, I'd be at a total loss without you. You are the glue holding my life together right now.

Nic, I can't believe you'd drop everything and come down, spending your tax money on me. ...well, I can believe it, I should believe it, but it's crazy and I love you and I can't wait to see you TOMORROW NIGHT!

Meg, thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you for my pictures. I don't even have them yet but I don't care. I know you did amazing and I'm so blessed by you gifting me this session of love for my family and for this new baby coming.


Since I'm not sure some would want to be publicly recognized or not I'll use some initials ...

W, thank you for cleaning my bathrooms last week. It so needed to be done and it is not something just anyone would do for someone else, come and clean the nastiest part of your house... thank you.

A, thank you for cleaning my whole house yesterday. MY WORD. I can't get over how clean it smells in here, how nice things look, how much you did while I was gone... I can't get over your generosity. Wow. Wow. Wow. I walked around my house last night just gasping at all that was done. Wow. Thank you.

M, thank you so much for keeping A's children for her to be able to come clean for me. You both are blessings.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

whatever is lovely 2

So last year, I wrote this out after Valentine's Day...

I find myself thinking "I don't like February" some times. But right now I'm trying to focus on JESUS instead of my circumstances. And when I focus on Jesus, I find myself being thankful. Grateful. And I find my thoughts drifting to this amazing man that HE has given to me. I'm so blessed by Jamie. And I'm so grateful for his love. I'm so blessed by him and by our relationship. I'm so thankful for the valleys we've come through so that we can stand strong when we are on the mountain peaks. Thank you God for Jamie and thank you for all the valleys and mountains we have come through and those we've yet to walk through--together.

I'm also very blessed by the children He's given me. All of them. I can't believe at the end of this month, it will be a year since we lost another babe to Heaven and three years since our first angel went Home. I'm so so blessed by my boys. I love Matthew and Mark more than words can say. They truly have completed me in ways I didn't know I needed to be completed. There is nothing better than being a mom. As I await the arrival of this new life inside me, I'm again amazed at the beauty of life. I'm so thankful for LOVE. Love of the Father in Heaven who gives life. Love of the Father in Heaven who IS life.

Thank you Jesus for being my FIRST LOVE. Thank you for FIRST LOVING ME. Help me to be the wife and mother I need to be for my husband and my children.

As Valentine's Day approaches, let us remember the best gift of all from the one who loves us the most--- Christ died on a tree so that you and I could truly be free. Thank you Lord for loving me enough to die for me.

As the things in this world seem to be crashing around, I need to be mindful of where my thoughts are. I want them focused on JESUS CHRIST, not on the circumstances before me. I need to train my mind to think on these things:

Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things. Philippians 4:8

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

baby in there

I haven't been posting many baby updates with this pregnancy, but I'm trucking along and getting closer to the finish line, so I'm guessing there will be more.

Yesterday I had a normal check up/appointment and it was eventful to say the least.


Dilated to a one already. That could mean something, that could mean nothing.

Oh yah, and I have a hernia... which explains why I feel like this child is coming out THROUGH my belly button. At night sometimes I just cry. I can't get comfortable. There is so much pressure. I thought it was be/c of a foot pressing on me or something, nope. Add one more to the "if it will happen, it will happen to Kate" theory.

Next week we have an ultrasound scheduled to check on baby's size and the fluid levels. We'll see what's going on at that point, if anything has changed with the hernia. Bad news is there is really nothing I can do. Tylenol that's it. Really bad news, if it doesn't heal on it's own after delivery, I'm looking at surgery 6 weeks post pardom. Great.... super great....

SOOO. I know God can do miracles and I'm going to start believing that this hernia will go away. I will NOT need surgery with a tiny one at home. And we'll make it to the most healthy delivery date we can. For me and baby bear in there.


...funny on Sunday, a girl in Matthew's Sunday school class said "Are you pregnant again?!" And I said "well, I'm still pregnant. It's the same baby still" (I'd been subbing in the class a couple weeks ago). She said "well, you need to go to the doctor get that baby out for real". How right you are little one.

Monday, February 7, 2011

my new love

I've discovered a new love... it's called the Rite Aid. They have a program very similar to CVS where you get "store money" printed on your receipt for certain items based on what's on sale that week...

Last week was my first Rite Aid (RA) visit. I signed up for their in-store card (wellness something or another) and spent 4 dollars on two jars of peanut butter. It was BOGO and then you got two of their "bucks" back which are called Up Rewards (UPs). Not bad. So I paid for one and got two and got 2UPs to spend later.

Today was later.

I bought 4 Gillette men body wash for cheeeeeap! They were on sale 2 for $8 (limit of two). So I made two separate transactions. I paid 2.48 for the first two washes with my coupons (two of $2/1 ...found in RP??? or PG??? 1/30) and my two UPs from the peanut butter. I got three UPs back on that receipt. I tore those off, and did the second transaction of two washes with two coupons and the three UPs. Hello! I paid 1.48 for the second two AND got 3 more UPs back for a later date. Sooo because I'd be lost at that math if I were reading it... I spent $3.96 on FOUR body washes that should have been $4.00 EACH! Cha-Ching!

I wanted the "later date" to be today, they also had a nice Betty Crocker deal I have coupons for, however the shelf was empty. I was told they'll get a truck in tomorrow and I can check back. I may call first and see if there are any on the shelf before heading out again, but I was pretty pleased with basically buying one body wash and getting THREE FREE!

I'm beginning to think I'm going to reallllly like RA! (Look out CVS!)

Friday, February 4, 2011

Friday Shopping at a glance


Here are my totals from shopping today.


CVS rocked this morning! Spent $13.80 with using 6 ECBs before the cash), SAVED $39.94 AND received 11 ECBs. ROCK ON. That is the last edition of the Mega awesome Wisk sale! So we are STOCKED on laundry soap for the house. I do want to find some killer deal on Dreft if it's possible before the baby comes and stock on that, be/c I am brand picky about newborn clothing laundry, but otherwise, we are golden in the laundry department.


Publix: Spent $11.63, SAVED $28.41 actually NOT as good as I was expecting. Some how I spent about 6 bucks more than I thought I would so I reviewed my receipt and the culprit is some how I picked up 4 of the 7 muffin mix I bought were not on the BOGO. or at least not listed as such. I still bought them with a coupon, so I'm pleased that I got a deal on them, but not as good as I thought. And I thought I was getting only BOGO items. If the cashier wouldn't have been a flighty clueless person, I would have stopped to look at this there, be/c I really was shocked at the price. Not that 11.63 is bad, but I was expecting between 7 and 8. ... I may go back tomorrow with the not BOGO boxes and my receipt and see what's what. ... is 6 dollars that worth it to me? that will be the question in the morning...

But, here's the pic from Publix today:


Pickles (nope, not for me. I do NOT crave pickles, I don't even like pickles) on sale and with coupon final price was $0.39 cents per jar.
Muffin mix: on sale and with coupon final price should have been $0.29 cents per box. Three of these were that and three were only $1.19 each
And the super winner: Olive oil. Normal price $6.99. Took each bottle home today for $1.99!!


Kroger: Spent $167.15, SAVED $73.24 ....more than I was expecting, but I bought our meat for the month and that always throws me off. I'm going to show you a picture of just the MEGA EVENT deal items. I was pretty pleased with this stuff. So you buy ten items, you get $5 off your total. I have thirty items here (so $15 off total and I paid these prices for them):


Kleenex at $0.66 per box
Goldfish at -$0.01 per box (yup, I got paid a penny to buy goldfish today)
Kens Salad dressing: $0.69 each
Ritz: $1.99
Ketchup: 1.99
apple juice: 1.99 each
pudding mix: $0.59 each
desitin: 1.50 each
Listerine 1.50 each
popcorn: 1.24

~~~~~

All in all, not a bad day!

Total spent: $192.58
Total saved: $141.59
Earned: 11 ECBs from CVS AND $1.50 off next purchase from Kroger.


I'm over budget, but I had babysitting money, so I'm cool with it. Unless there are just some seriously super nearly free or free deals next week, I wont be buying anything thanks to menu planning and our stockpile. YAY!