to just breathe...

Nic came to visit this weekend. I know it was a sacrfice for her to leave her family and her busy, important job to come to my side... but, I'm so glad she did. There's something about being in a room with a person who makes feel at complete peace. ... You can breathe a little easier, a lot easier. When Nic and I are together we've often tried to figure that sense of peace, sense of comfort out. It's unmatchable. With no one else, can I feel so at ease. With no other friend, can I feel like my total self. We will often say after a visit or trip that it was nice to just "be." There are no fronts we have to put up, no walls, no barriers, no boundaries, no rules, no expectations ... we just "are." And at times of the most difficult struggles when we are apart, it is sometimes hard to breathe without each other. .... This weekend, while Nic was here. It was very nice to just breathe. We didn't have to talk about (as my new friend Deb would say) the giant gorilla in the room. But niether did we sit in silence. We LAUGHED. We watched movies. We shared memories. We shared kid stories. We played with my boys. We just were. We sat on the couch, existing together. It is nice, with Nic... to just be. I love her. With my whole heart, I'm so thankful for the time she gave up to come be a comfort to me this weekend. I'm sad it was so short, but am so blessed for you in my life. Regardless of time or distance between us.

Aunt Nic and Matthew at story time.

Saying goodbye...

Wonder when the next time we'll be able to breathe will be....