Thanksgiving

I sit here with tears in my eyes...

Sometimes it is hard to be thankful when you feel slighted or hurt or lonely or without or lost or afraid or or or...

I feel very isolated right now. I have a great need to be with my mom, even though she was just here last week. I'm so thankful for her and for our friendship and for our relationship in general-- and from where it has come. I'm so thankful for her love and her companionship. There are days when I talk to know one else outside the house but her. There are days when I can only call her and share with her my feelings. There are days when I know she needs me as much as I need her. I love you mom.

But, I am thankful...

-for my God who loves me just because of who He is.
-for my husband who loves me more than I deserve.
-for my son, my sweet Matthew. I love his kisses and snuggles.
-for my unborn Manna, whom I can't wait to meet soon.
-for my lost child who is in Heaven with Jesus waiting for me.
-for friends who understand that kind of loss
-for the family that is close by, Jamie's parents and siblings.
-for all the family that is far, but still close in my heart.
-for Jamie's job and the provision God continues.
-for Jamie's health and his ability to hold his job.
-for the ability to stay at home and raise our children
-for the ability to have Jamie's children
-for snow-- I miss the snow...
-for memories made
-for life.
-for love.
-for Jesus Christ above all else.

appt update

I had an appt today ... and oh my stars, I'm measuring out even further. What do you do if you measure PAST 40 weeks? Today I'm at 35 weeks and measuring 40. My MW even measured twice to be sure. She felt around on the outside and everything seems okay. (oops! I just realized that I didn't ask if we were heading down yet or not, but I guess if I wasn't she'd have told me) -- anyhow, I'll start going every week now for her to keep tabs on the growth. We'll do an u/s either next time or in two weeks to see the fluid levels and to get an estimate on the weight of baby. It's getting close to the end!

Christmas Tree

My mom was here for the week and I loved her being here helping us. In that help, she aided Jamie in getting the Christmas boxes out of the attic and we went ahead and "put up" Christmas with her here (even though it's before Thanksgiving. oh well!) So here's a little taste of Christmas so far at the Hobbs' house:

Matthew: "What is THAT?!"
Momma: "It's a big box. It holds our Christmas tree. Do you want to help momma with the Christmas tree?"
Matthew: "Right!"

So, Matthew helped throw the branches into piles and helped me "fluff" each branch and hand it to Daddy. He helped inspect Daddy's work of putting the pole up before we could add the branches. "That's a tall tower!" he said at the empty pole. :) It was so fun watching him be a part of helping get it all together. And every morning so far he's ran to the playroom and has been so happy that his Christmas tree is still there! Today this was his response, when seeing it and I flicked the lights on: "Momma! It's the Chris-sas Tree! It is!" Like, you never know, it might have walked off in the middle of the night. Good thing it's still standing where we left it. haha.

So question-- how do you explain to him AFTER Christmas is over that we have to put it BACK in the box??

One More

for the "general public" posting the other day...

So today, cashier at walmart (why can't these gals just shut their traps?!) goes "So you got two in there?" I say, "no just one" (oh and this is after she asked what I was having and we did that song and dance) and she goes "oh my, well, you're huge"

THANKS.

THANKS A LOT.

Seriously, I took the cart handle and pushed it away without comment, leaving my mom standing there to pay her. LOL ! UGH!

The General Public

My word. .... Yes. I know I'm pregnant. Thank you.

Couple stupid "here's your sign" stories from the general public from this weekend:

1. Dude at gas station has to help me cuz the machine is whacked out and wouldn't take my rewards card. Anyhow, he goes "Woah, girl, you're really pregnant, aren't you?" ...um... here's your sign? I replied "Yes, sir. I am." But I wanted to scream at him... "No. I thought I'd just swallow a freaking watermelon this morning and see what it did to me." Duh.

2. Walmart checker goes "So it's a girl, right?" I'm like "I donno" she goes, "Oh, so it's a boy." ...here's your sign?? ... I say "no, I don't know. I don't know either way" She looked at me like I'm nuts and said "well it's a baby right?" ... No... no, it's an alien, a bowling ball, a head of lettuce, YES it's a baby. I just don't know what the sex is you moron. I just stared at her and said "Yup, it sure is." ...Here's your second sign???

3. Lady today passing by said "Aww, you're really out there" (thanks) "So, what are you having?" I said, "um, a baby, we don't know yet who it is" She said, "oh you don't have your names picked out or you aren't sharing them?" I said, "no, we have names, I just don't know which one yet" She goes, "oh so what is it?" ... um.... I'm like "I donno" She says (and a little frusterated I think) "You just don't know yet?" (with her eyebrows raised at me like I'm lying as she takes inventory of how far out my tummy is...) I say, "No, we aren't finding out. I don't want to know" (now my own frustration starting to kick in. Give it up lady) she simply says, "Oh well that's foolish. Why wouldn't you want to know? How can you know what to name it?" ... well, I don't, which is why I have a name either way you flapjack!... and I simply said "well we have two options, one either way." And she says "well I'd make them tell you at your next appt." ....did you miss the part where I said I didn't want to know?!?!!? UGH!


WHY is it the general public's need to know what/who is in MY tummy? And why can't people just accept it when I tell them I don't know. That I don't want to know. That I'm anxiously awaiting the greatest gift ever given and I don't want to peak. You'd think after you say "I don't know" that would be enough, but my word, people need reasons.

How can you possibly be measuring 38 weeks pregnant, sticking out as far as China and NOT know the sex of the ONE (I had two "it's twins right?" comments this weekend) baby in your belly?!? ... Becuase I'm the momma and I can. ...

I remember this being an issue when I was pg with Matthew but seriously, the comments get better and better...

Appt update

Just a quick update to say we're still growing. Belly is now measuring 2 more weeks ahead. (I really don't think I can measure any further out--it is just all belly now)! Blood pressure fine, baby's heart rate is fine and we go back in two weeks to do the same. Two more weeks after that, we'll do another u/s to double check the fluid levels and see the baby's size. I am so anxious to see it again.

Sorry for the short note, but there really isn't anything lengthy to comment on, so I wont keep rambling. Cheers.

Yet another belly shot

It's been a month since the last belly picture. If you wanna see the difference -- look for Oct 5th in the archives. We're having a class party tonight with our Sunday School class, so I actually look half decent instead of like the walking dead. It's crazy to think we're under 50 days now. Less than two months to go. We have another Ob check up appt this coming Friday. I'm sure I'll update after that.

Story time

There are things in this world that continue to take my breath away. Story time with Daddy is one of those things. I love watching my men interact with each other. When Jamie has such little precious time with his son, it's so very neat to step back and watch them enjoy each other. When you tally up the time that daddies aren't working and babies aren't sleeping, it isn't a lot of time together. I wish you could hear Matthew's sweet voice, "Read it my Daddy, read it." How can a daddy argue with that?

Pony

Matthew on the pony ready to ride!

We had to stop a few times, the guide wanted both of Matthew's hands on the saddle horn and Matthew wanted to hold on to Daddy!

Matthew got to ride a pony last night at a fall festival we went to. He loved it. We waited in line for over a half hour and for the most part he didn't complain or get antsy; he was ready and willing to ride a pony. Jamie thinks I had a better time with Matthew though just watching him and getting excited about him being excited. We don't have much time left with just Matthew and I'm glad to do special things with him right now. Also, we decorated a cookie. Ha ha, so here's our masterpiece before Mommy ate it. Matthew enjoyed picking the sprinkles off to eat those, but he ended up just eating a plain cookie without any icing.